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IT’S NOT WHAT YOU GATHER, BUT WHAT YOU SCATTER…

It’s a Friday.  If you want a heartwarming break from your daily grind,  READ ABOUT THE RED MARBLES…

I was at the corner grocery store buying some early potatoes… I noticed a small boy, delicate of bone and feature, ragged but clean, hungrily apprising a basket of freshly picked green peas.

I paid for my potatoes but was also drawn to the display of fresh green peas. I am a pushover for creamed peas and new potatoes.

Pondering the peas, I couldn’t help overhearing the conversation between Mr. Miller (the store owner) and the ragged boy next to me.

‘Hello Barry, how are you today?’

‘H’lo, Mr. Miller. Fine, thank ya. Jus’ admirin’ them peas. They sure look good.’

‘They are good, Barry. How’s your Ma?’

‘Fine. Gittin’ stronger alla’ time.’

‘Good. Anything I can help you with?’

‘No, Sir. Jus’ admirin’ them peas.’

‘Would you like to take some home?’ Asked Mr. Miller.

‘No, Sir. Got nuthin’ to pay for ‘em with.’

‘Well, what have you to trade me for some of those peas?’

‘All I got’s my prize marble here.’

‘Is that right? Let me see it’ said Miller.

‘Here ’tis. She’s a dandy.’

‘I can see that. Hmm mmm, only thing is this one is blue and I sort of go for red. Do you have a red one like this at home?’ the store owner asked..

‘Not zackley but almost.’

‘Tell you what. Take this sack of peas home with you and next trip this way let me look at that red marble’. Mr. Miller told the boy.

‘Sure will. Thanks Mr. Miller.’

Mrs. Miller, who had been standing nearby, came over to help me.

With a smile she said, ‘There are two other boys like him in our community, all three are in very poor circumstances. Jim just loves to bargain with them for peas, apples, tomatoes, or whatever.

When they come back with their red marbles, and they always do, he decides he doesn’t like red after all and he sends them home with a bag of produce for a green marble or an orange one, when they come on their next trip to the store.’

I left the store smiling to myself, impressed with this man. A short time later I moved to Colorado, but I never forgot the story of this man, the boys, and their bartering for marbles.

Several years went by, each more rapid than the previous one. Just recently I had occasion to visit some old friends in that Idaho community and while I was there learned that Mr. Miller had died. They were having his visitation that evening and knowing my friends wanted to go, I agreed to accompany them. Upon arrival at the mortuary we fell into line to meet the relatives of the deceased and to offer whatever words of comfort we could.

Ahead of us in line were three young men. One was in an army uniform and the other two wore nice haircuts, dark suits and white shirts…all very professional looking. They approached Mrs. Miller, standing composed and smiling by her husband’s casket.

Each of the young men hugged her, kissed her on the cheek, spoke briefly with her and moved on to the casket. Her misty light blue eyes followed them as, one by one; each young man stopped briefly and placed his own warm hand over the cold pale hand in the casket. Each left the mortuary awkwardly, wiping his eyes.

Our turn came to meet Mrs. Miller. I told her who I was and reminded her of the story from those many years ago and what she had told me about her husband’s bartering for marbles. With her eyes glistening, she took my hand and led me to the casket.

‘Those three young men who just left were the boys I told you about.

They just told me how they appreciated the things Jim ‘traded’ them. Now, at last, when Jim could not change his mind about color or size……they came to pay their debt.’

‘We’ve never had a great deal of the wealth of this world,’ she confided, ‘but right now, Jim would consider himself the richest man in Idaho ..’

With loving gentleness she lifted the lifeless fingers of her deceased husband. Resting underneath were three exquisitely shined red marbles.

The Moral:

We will not be remembered by our words, but by our kind deeds. Life is not measured by the breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath.

  • Today I wish you a day of ordinary miracles ~
  • A fresh pot of coffee you didn’t make yourself…
  • An unexpected phone call from an old friend….
  • Green stoplights on your way to work….
  • The fastest line at the grocery store….
  • A good sing-along song on the radio…
  • Your keys found right where you left them.

IT’S NOT WHAT YOU GATHER, BUT WHAT YOU SCATTER THAT TELLS WHAT KIND OF LIFE YOU HAVE LIVED!

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Expose myself — generate motivation?

OK, I’ve been doing the Dr. Fuhrman “nutritarian” thing a couple weeks, but slowly adding back some “non vegetarian” elements, like fish and chicken. I was just too hungry and too tired.  I am discovering I’m not a very good vegetarian but I do find I like more vegetarian dishes than I thought I would.

I’m doing the personal training thing twice a week and still trying to implement a routine on the other days (and feel motivated to accomplish it). The personal training stuff is hard for me. I don’t really enjoy it very much… with my inflexibility, extra weight, and I always feel so sore and creaky afterward. I have to trust that it will start to get easier at some point.

I remember years ago when motivation wasn’t a problem at all. Now it feels like a supreme effort to get out and do that walk or bike ride and feel good about it. Perhaps it’s the effects of “life” bearing down and wearing me out, I don’t know.. afterall, I have gone through many challenging experiences recently and in years past.  Or perhaps it is really a bit of clinical depression, as the doctor has suggested and said I may be in denial about.  I have only entertained filling the RX he gave me a few times.

Who knows…  I argue with myself internally tooth and nail… that I do NOT want to be depressed.  I keep searching for that joy I used to have with my life and feel so guilty I can’t find it… After all, the old saying goes, I do have much to be thankful for… and there are always others much worse off than me.  And there is the “pull yourself up by your bootstraps” philosophy that alot of us grew up with… and with that I chastise myself for feeling blah and sad.

I have to assume it’s always good to dump, huh?  🙂 So, bear with me here.

I DID lose some weight but have so far to go that it overwhelms me and the hopeless feeling overcomes my brief happy thought. I keep fantasizing that I’m going to go into a long sleep and when I wake up I’m going to be 30 or 40 lbs. lighter, fit and healthy, and have lots of joy and energy.  Quite a dream, huh?

OK… time to get onto other tasks. My corporate taxes for 2009 are due next week…yikes! A procrastinator I always am when it comes to that stuff.  So, I’ve put those tasks ahead of my riding today and will take that urban ride through the park later when I’ve gotten those items completed for my accountant.

Another thought I’ve entertained for creating accountability in this weight loss quest… is that maybe I’ll actually expose myself here with a “before” picture, and my goals, and document my successes (and failures)… but with the idea there IS GOING to be an “after” picture that I’ll be proud to put up.  We shall see, huh?

To whoever is reading this… have a wonderful day.

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I hope this isn’t just another waste of time for me…

I just signed on for Dr. Fuhrman’s “Nutritarian” program… to lose some weight, lower my cholesterol naturally, and also as an aside, hopefully to feel better, have more energy and also more “joy” in life in general.

Of course, the “doc” wants me to take a cholesterol med and even an anti-depressant…. and since we discovered I’m insufficient in Vit. D, I AM taking some massive doses of that right now.  But for the other…  I want to give it my best effort to resolve those issues utilizing more natural means.

We’ll see how it goes… and perhaps I’ll post here with an update every so often.

Feel free to leave a note to cheer me on… I could use a few more folks in my cheering section as I challenge myself with this, in addition to the other challenges that have been going on in my life also.

Thanks for listening… whoever is out there!   🙂

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Reminiscing while waiting for the coffee to kick in…

I was scrolling through my blog (I can do that fairly quickly as there aren’t that many posts) and ran across one of my very early posts… and it was kind of an eye opener, ah ha moment, or whatever they call it.  (https://ctabor.wordpress.com/2009/03/29/its-been-a-long-time-baby/)

It struck home because I realized I was still struggling with some of the same issues and situations… Makes me wonder if I’m just totally oblivious to understanding how to address making changes or am in denial about it all.

Anyway, sipping some coffee this morning, trying to wake up, after yet another lousy night’s sleep…. thinking I “should” be on my bike or “should” be doing this or that, and feeling stuck and obviously not doing anything because I’m sitting here writing in my blog instead!  Continue reading

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It always seems when I’m wallowing, I’ll see something like this inspirational little movie…

Lately, I’ve had more than a few days where I struggled not to feel despair or sorry for myself.  And, I’m certain others of you have had your own struggles or challenges.

It always seems when I’m wallowing, I’ll see something like this little movie, or get a peek inside an inspirational little book like “Living a Five Star Life” by Betty Mahalik; great reminders that with the right attitude and persistence, things can always get turned around. And not only for myself, but with some minimal commitment, also very likely for someone else. It takes realizing “less can be more” and remembering that there are many others in more need than I am.

This is one poignant reminder that we do have the power to make changes in our world. I hope you’ll find the same inspiration that I did from this little movie and a take a peek through the book mentioned above.  Enjoy.  http://www.everymondaymovie.com/

Christine

And as Ralph Waldo Emerson so aptly stated:  “The ancestor of every action is a thought”.

And another great quote by Langston Hughes:  “Hold fast to dreams, for if dreams die, life is a broken winged bird that cannot fly.”

Have a great day and a wonderful Labor Day Weekend!

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For those that replied to my photo request… thank you!

I got some interesting picks from friends and family out of my photos to help me narrow down my choices.

It was SO HARD to pick just two to submit. And the ones I thought I liked best and thought would be the favorites were not what others chose so it was quite interesting what others preferences were.

Here are the two I submitted.  I am not convinced they were my best, but I liked them.  I got so weary trying to figure it out, I just sort of pointed and clicked and those were it!   I have named them “Celestial Flower” and “Ahhhh-Green”.   🙂   Please click to see them larger.

I’ll share some of the winners with you after all the dust settles. Thanks again!

Christine

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Help me pick two! Scott Kelby’s World Photo Walk…

I recently participated in Scott Kelby’s World Photo Walk and had a blast with my photo group… our “Walk” was in Palm Harbor, FL.  I took many many pictures and have actually narrowed them down to these so far. I need help selecting TWO to submit to the World competition. I’m not fooling myself as far as chances to win, but I want to participate.

If you can take a few minutes to watch and review these images, would love to know what two are YOUR favorites!

Need to hear TODAY, July 25th so I can submit before midnight tonight.

These images are a bit small on this page, so to see as a full size slideshow, please CLICK HERE.

Over to the right, you’ll see small icons to enable a slide show or other formats.  Although there may be some images that appear to be duplicates, there are actually slight differences in contrast or color and you may only be able to see these on a full screen view. ALSO, because the file sizes are large, it sometimes pauses to “load” the full, sharp image.

🙂  Look forward to hearing from you!

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