I was scrolling through my blog (I can do that fairly quickly as there aren’t that many posts) and ran across one of my very early posts… and it was kind of an eye opener, ah ha moment, or whatever they call it. (https://ctabor.wordpress.com/2009/03/29/its-been-a-long-time-baby/)
It struck home because I realized I was still struggling with some of the same issues and situations… Makes me wonder if I’m just totally oblivious to understanding how to address making changes or am in denial about it all.
Anyway, sipping some coffee this morning, trying to wake up, after yet another lousy night’s sleep…. thinking I “should” be on my bike or “should” be doing this or that, and feeling stuck and obviously not doing anything because I’m sitting here writing in my blog instead!
I wonder if some of my fog, going in too many directions (multi tasking is actually NOT very productive, its been shown), poor sleep, can’t lose weight, food cravings, etc. is related in part to my hormones and off balance thyroid? Or maybe that’s a cop out. Not sure. I do know my recent blood work was pretty whacked out, so this time I’ll follow my family doc’s direction and see what happens. I tend to buck that system also (have always been a rebel, I guess) but can’t afford to see an alternative med doc, which is what I prefer.
Anyway… I think I WILL take an hour for some rejuvenation, either on the bike or a walk. Or maybe I should go shoot some pictures or something. The problem is that then I feel guilty for doing so.
If anyone has suggestions on how they overcome the guilt thing, would love to hear them! I’ll report back here on whether I really did what I said! LOL