I had a hard time even remembering the name of this blog so I could find it again. I see I haven’t been here since last November and that is much too long.
But I wasn’t really sure what I wanted to use this blog for and now I think I know.
So, I will use it to just write and share my journey, my thoughts, my tribulations and hopefully my solutions, and you with me. I think it will be good for me, and in the course of it, perhaps it will help someone else.
Times are tough and I’ve certainly gone through some interesting ones over the years. I thought I had “overcome”, as they say, as I was living well finally, bought my first home by myself and was fixing it up, had a pretty good job, great friends, generally happy (except for the ever present relationship problems)… and then the bottom slowly fell out.
It didn’t happen overnight as it has for others, but a slow eroding over the last year or so. Perhaps I didn’t WANT to see it, to acknowledge it. I kept putting on that happy face and anticipating “tomorrow would be better”.
Well, here I am a year or so later and facing possible foreclosure with no credit available and yet still putting in 12-16 hour days trying to make things work. I’m obviously doing something wrong.
Time for re-assessment and more focused direction.
Time to stay on task instead of going 10 different directions.
And the relationship stuff? Well, guess that has to wait. I seem to have a broken picker anyway as I repeat one bad or unfilling relationship after another, so until I get that figured out, its best to put that on hold. Hopefully I’ll figure it out before I get too old. I would still like to share my life, hopes, dreams and yes, hobbies and passions, with someone that can reciprocate same. But maybe it’s not to be.
I’m also hoping that by writing some of my “story” down somewhere might be a healing process and also be helpful in narrowing my direction. So, whether it be here or perhaps a journal or even a book — by writing and/or sharing a little bit each day or every few days, things will start to become clearer and perhaps right themselves.
I also plan on connecting more with my friends that give me positive feedback and avoid those that don’t.We’ve all heard that advice before, but I wonder how many of us put it into action?
So for any of you that “find my blog”… feel free to leave a comment or two. I’ve been feeling a little lonely these days. And if anything I share ever touches you, helps you in some way, that would give ME such encouragement, so please let me know if that is the case.
I’ve been sick this week, and trying to make myself “take it easy” and rest a bit… sometimes a hard thing for me to do. I have so much head chatter that reprimands me if I get off task, become forgetful, sit too much, woulda coulda shoulda…. you know the drill. 🙂
Warmest thoughts… Have a wonderful day!